That one has no hair, the other doesn't know what the capital of Mongolia is
Publikováno 06.12.2013 v 16:48 v kategorii Arwenin elfí deníček, přečteno: 104x
According to the title, you might think that I am a very selfish and arrogant person. Actually I might as well be..but this article shouldn't be a complaint about other people's imperfections. No, it's a reflection about my incapability of love.
Which sounds like I was some kind of monster who isn't able to appreciate other human beings. And I really hope this is not the case. Because I really really love my family and my friends are also very dear to my little heart, but for some reason I'm unable to love my potential boyfriend. I can't recall if I have ever really loved some boy or if it is just a current state, which is caused by previous bad experiences.
Do you know that feeling when you're head over heels in love, have butterflies in your stomach and feel dizzy every time your beloved one passes by? Is there any limited amount of those feelings alloted to each person? Did I use them up all? Because it's been ages since I felt like this and it feels like I'll never be able of having this feeling again.
It's almost like I was unable of love. I simply can't fall in love. What did I become? Am I a heartless cynical creature? Don't get me wrong, I am not desperately looking for my love and I don't really feel that I need somebody to be with. What I miss is that feeling of being in love, the feeling of pure admiring of someone dear to my heart. Because what's the point of living when you don't love anybody? When you're enclosed in your little universe consisting of you and your ego. Every human being should be able to love somebody. I think that is the main part of being human. But what if it's missing? I don't really know...
Do you know that feeling when you're head over heels in love, have butterflies in your stomach and feel dizzy every time your beloved one passes by? Is there any limited amount of those feelings alloted to each person? Did I use them up all? Because it's been ages since I felt like this and it feels like I'll never be able of having this feeling again.
It's almost like I was unable of love. I simply can't fall in love. What did I become? Am I a heartless cynical creature? Don't get me wrong, I am not desperately looking for my love and I don't really feel that I need somebody to be with. What I miss is that feeling of being in love, the feeling of pure admiring of someone dear to my heart. Because what's the point of living when you don't love anybody? When you're enclosed in your little universe consisting of you and your ego. Every human being should be able to love somebody. I think that is the main part of being human. But what if it's missing? I don't really know...
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